speaking from the heart.

whats going on my peoples..hope everybody is well and is doing well..but coming to write some stuff thats been wrecking my mind still..and i think if i write about it it will help me out to get it off my mine. so before i start i want to say i love yall dont want nobody to be offended by anything i say. aight so first thing...alot of things has recently happen and has happen before..well lets start what has recently happen..me and everybody knows who i was talking to(rhonda)..broke up..i put a facebook status of how i was feeling and one thing lead to another (what was said is between us) to we broke up...i admit what i did and how i did it was wrong and i apologize i wasnt thinking at the time..my intentions was not to break up..shid me,everybody and they momma thought we would be together for along time honestly..but like i say all the time things happen for a reason, the reason.. only god knows, buuut...i just want to say if your looking at this blog..that i never meant to hurt yoou or hurt your feelings or break your heart i told you i wouldnt and i didnt..thats wayyyy out of my league..and i was always completley honest with you about everything. but i just want to say that..i hope you forgive me..and i wish nothing but the best for you and my lil homies from the bottom of my heart..and you know no matter what you can call me for anything..you know ill be there..you know that..big head lil girl be careful,and please please choose wisely do that for me thanks and i never told you but i love ya (+:(see my lil smiley face lol) aight aight moving along moving along..hope yall still with me mann foreal...aight..the other thing that has happen..was i tried to get some of my homies together cause i felt it was tention and it was...clearly..i didnt and wasnt intending for that to happen that way..no shape or form..(what i say on my statuses all the time stay positive)..i thought we could and the reason why i say we because im in it as well because im trying to help fix it..bring everybody back together but it starts with us maning up...really mannnn...i see potential in everybody just imagined..Just think when everybody was in Dfe me,Crusha,Greg,Rdub,b flame,prince,nikko,(hope i didnt forget nobody) come on man we was unstoppable..we all had a part and we did our part..now that everybody has split up Into they own separate clicks or labels or whatever..we act like we all still can't come together..go to parties,come support each other whenever anybody do a show..help each other sale each others mixtape..ect..everybody has a part into doing something cause it's a never ending grind. Another thing is that we need to drop the little beefs and he say she say against each other shid we all about to hit 25..half way point to 30..some of us got kids this high school shit needs to come to a end quickly( excuse my French) but I refuse to let my nieces and nephews grow up in this stupidity and fooliness of everybody..they should be our motivation to make it somewhere whether it be with the music or anything (legal)..sorry but this is true. Like I know it's gone be hard for some people to drop stuff cause of They pride. but you gone eventually have to do it so why not do it now?? like rightnow i dont have the studio cause i took a break for me to get myself together..im cool im better than before i still got a ways to go..but it bothers me when i see my peoples not getting along like we use to. man when we was in high school..whewwww!!..man them was the days..we all went to parties with each other,when any of us got into a fight we was there for each other..like i said we was unstoppable and this coming from a lil dude that wasnt with yall for most of the stuff yall did..but i seen the bond everybody had..for years..and now its up and gone. and i refuse to give up on yall..i said i was gone leave it alone..but i lied..lol..so get ready. but i love all yall though and thats real nigga shiznit..we gone get it together though..I PROMISE. AS ALWAYS MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS AROUND YOU STAY POSITIVE IGNORE THAT NEGATIVITY PEACE N LOVE MY FAMILY. P.S.. IF ANYBODY GOT A PROBLEM WITH WHAT I SAID FEEL FREE TO HIT ME UP. IN CASE YOU DONT HAVE MY NUMBER..ITS 615-474-0170.

My Calling.

On january 13,1987 I was born into a musical family on my daddy side that was into church heavily..my grandma went to church faithfully she even sung in the choir..As I got older I realized hey everybody could tote a note on this side of the family..lol..my daddy(Donnie hue Frierson Sr.) and my uncle(Darryl Frierson) started a gospel group that is now known and named as the joyboyz. I grew up listening to alot of gospel mainly quartet groups..such as the canton spirituals,lee William and spiritual qc's,the gospel keynotes,ect...I not only grew up listening but as I traveled with the joyboyz alot I've had the chance to see and meet alot of groups along the way. When I was little I use to learn and sing all the joyboyz and others gospel groups songs to where I discovered I had a voice...but being that I was shy I always kept it to myself but in the back of my head I think my family knew I could sing they Just knew I was shy.I remember I use to call my grandma house and sing on the answering machine..lol..child hood memory. During my child hood all I listened to was gospel, rnb,old school and funk cause that's what my dad listened to. As I got older I started to catch up and listen to rap more but always veered back to what I was brought up on and that was gospel music. I even started to sing and write music but in the music I sung you could hear the gospel in my voice..the soulfulness as well..that's why I think and a part of me know that gospel and soulful music is my real place for my voice. That's why one of these days I imagine singing on stage with my dad and uncle and the joyboyz..cause i think thats my calling,but i will NOT step into that until im for sure ready. Yep!! As always stay true to yourself and others around you and stay positive ignore the negativity peace n love.

The meanings of what i say.

I know some people may ask what do I mean when I say: always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love?? Well it's very simple..i mean it's not hard at all. You have folks out here who not staying true to they self and doing what other people want them to do, being a follower ect. Doing that you not being true to yourself you basically being someone servant and being they follower. I always tell people, do you, do what you want, dont let nobody tell you different or stop you from doing you. stay true to yourself. if you know a situation not right either remove yourself, well not either do remove yourself and continue to do you. When you first start being true to yourself then you start being true to others around you..you and then others. You might lose friends,girlfriends,family..but in the end you stay true to yourself and do what's right bottom line. Now,the peace n love part..we as people need to start coming together helping each other out and stop being against one another..just plain and simple..and I'm talking about all races..we need to stop hurting one another and spread the love bottom line. But it start with us. Soooo..yall know the quote..As always stay true to yourself and others around you and stay positive ignore the negativity peace n love family.

Being the BIGGER person!

well..lets see..well first let me start by saying whats up to my peoples hope everybody is doing good staying positive and things...i want to talk about being the bigger person in certain situations. i know theres been times where you know you was right,you know you didnt do anything wrong ect.. all you was waiting for was a im sorry from the other person and it would be done and over with, on your end atleast.well sometimes well most of the times it doesnt work like this..most of the time its like the person who was wrong is keeping his or her pride and want admit he or she was wrong..i mean to me whats so hard about admitting you was wrong?? wrong is wrong and right is right..BOTTOM LINE its going to come out sooner or later. i feel the person who was right in the situation has a right to keep his or her pride and dont have to say anything. but sometimes even though the person was right will have to put his or her pride away and step up and be the BIGGER person to amends the situation and move on. yes sometimes its tough to do that but sometimes its needed and well worth it in the end on your part. you might not still get to hear what you want to hear from the other person but its always good to know you stepped up to be the BIGGER person to try to amends the situation to move forward. it feels GREAT!! SOO.. my peoples think about it, it s nothing wrong wit being the BIGGER person it doesnt make you a punk,it doesnt say you was scared, ect..it says you were woman or man enough to step up talk about it, dismiss it, and move on in your life. i said the same thing like 3 different ways lol just saying...so like always stay true to yourself and others around you and stay positive ignore the negativity peace n love family.

Just talking about my day

Umm..where should I start well..let me start by saying what's good with my peoples out there hope everything is cool and swell with you hope y'all staying positive and staying away from the negative and staying true to yourself and others around you. Let's see well today was a cool hot day..I mean I got up to go to work and got there to find out that I was off..I was upset cause I wasted gas but was happy at the same time, gas is slowly going down thank you GOD!!! Well when I left my job,... by the way it was a beautiful hot day..so I couldn't let it go to waste..so I came home washed my car..that took a couple of hours..until I start getting a headache and feeling like I was gone throw up I ate that made it worse..idk what's been up with me lately..my appetite hasn't been the same I been getting headaches feeling like I'm going to throw up and stuff not the normal me..if this keeps up Im going to have to go to the doctor..but anyways what else happened all!!... My mom had surgery dont know  what on, she told me it was women surgery soo..i left it alone lol..but shes ok my moms a strong black woman and i love her...ok moving right along...OH!! Today was me and my lady(Rhonda) 3month anniversary...I was telling the homies this and they laughed and talked about me lol..them my bro's and i love them but that tells me I'm different from alot of guys out there..I do things in a relationship that no other guy does..idk that's just me..I always like to see my lady happy cause when she not happy I'm bothered by that..itll be on my mind til I can do something about it..that's how I've always been..I don't think it's a trait it's just me the type of man I am. But I'm glad we been together for 3months some relationships don't last that long..now I'm not saying it's been a perfect 3months cause we all have problems and ect..you just have to stick together, talk about it, and work together and if it's meant to work it will work if it's not then respectfully move on and wish each other the best I mean that's what real people do you know. And yea i ended my day with her..even though she got upset cause I bought her the wrong type of beverage..lol..I'm so sorry. But yes my peoples that's how my day went I'm done with this blog...y'all already know as always stay true to yourself and others around you and stay positive peace n love family. P.s rest In peace coco.

father-hood

yes im up at 3:10 in the morning...i was out cooling with the circle just talking about everything...from kids,father-hood,music now days,kool-aide,smoking,drinking,ect...yoou know just talking..but out of all these different convos the one that stood out most and the one i just thought about the most was father-hood..we talked about how could you be a dead beat father?? how?? i dont know..but i know personally i couldnt and wouldnt be a dead beat..that wouldnt cross my mind..when i first have my little one..im going to be the best father i can be no if's and's or about it's. i mean im going to be excited more than the mother of my child..like im going to video document the whole pregnancy..lol..from when we find out she pregnant til she gives birth..i mean thats just me..and plus i want my child to see everything from the beginning. i always say i want twins..lol..thats it...lol..but ill be happy with whatever god bless me and my beautiful lady with..i wont complain at all. but yeaaa..thats just what stook with me out of all the convos we had..i can wait but i cant wait to have my little one. as always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love.

Me time

Well, on may 1st I decided to leave state all by myself with only my moms,pops,my beautiful lady,and "the circle" only knowing where I was going. They understood to a certain degree why I was just upping and leaving..I mean like I said in my introduction things were beginning to get a little overwhelming for me and I thought to myself I need to get away for a couple of days I needed to think,get my mind right,get back focused,get right with myself,and come back changed In alot of ways only that I know of and you will see. Every once in awhile I think you need a little you time to clear your mind, make sure you right with yourself go somewhere peaceful..so you wont stray away or go crazy. So with that said as I always say always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love family. P.s I just won't to think everybody who checked up on me to make sure I was ok..I just to say I love y'all really from the bottom of my heart..If you need anything,any help,anything don't hesitate to ask me ok again peace n love family let's come together. I'll see y'all Friday may 6 somewhere.

The circle

Derrick,Kendric,chris,kenny,Levoy,max,braxton,Neely,Mal,squirt,jamonte.

Derrick: Derrick a.k.a bola the big brother of the circle..man me and this guy met in high school.. We had 2 classes together P.E and auto-mechanics I really can't tell you how we became so cool..lol..but we did and have been for 12years..that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Kendric: Kendric a.k.a Shoota the young buck of the circle..lol..the reason I laugh because it's funny how things happen.. In high school he use to come up to our table the senior table and he use to get looked at funny like will you get on somewhere I mean I use to be like who is this guy..lol now that's my broham I been knowing him for 6 years..I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Chris: chris a.k.a Stylez lol now this guy is funny..he said he laughed at me when he saw me..cause first I became friends with his brother Derrick so if anybody friends with either one of them you friends with both..but I just find it funny he laughed at me cause I was little lol..but now that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Kenny: Kenny doesn't have a nick name that I know of..but me and this guy being knowing each other since elementary school a long time..we been going to the same school all our lives except for college..today we still cool that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Levoy: Levoy a.k.a L. Green productions be looking for that name..but anyways this my brother..everybody say we look alike lol..but me and him being knowing each other since elementary as well..we lived in the same neighborhood..this guy crazy but helpful he'll give you his last dollar this my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Max:max a.k.a ocon I guess idk lol..but this my Mexican homie..me and max being knowing each other but we ain't never spoke til like maybe 3years ago...I thought he didn't like me lol..idk why I thought that..but I did I'm sorry..but that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Braxton: braxton a.k.a b-town this guy quiet idk how we got so cool..lol..but we got cool In high school we both was cool with the same people we been knowing each other for about 10 years...that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Neeley: my favorite white boy brother from another mother..even though I rarely see the guy..he still cool with me..we got cool In high school in mrs Hughes class lol..funny white dude I know I keep saying white white white..i mean he is white lol..I'm playing no Im not..he really is..I'm not racist..just to clear that up..but we been knowing each other for about 10 years..that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Mal:Mal a.k.a fat malz he say he been knowing me but whatever...lol I officially met this guy through big julian trying to get studio time..the rest is history it's too much to write lol..I think if I didn't meet him I would be doing music but not how I'm doing it now..but anyways we been knowing each other for about 8years that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Ruben: ruben a.k.a squirt, I met this guy through Derrick and chris..they all cuzins..from there we became cool..he the oldest out of everybody me and him been knowing each other for about 10 years that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

Jamonte: jamonte a.k.a B flame me and this guy been knowing each other since elementary this guy been the same every since..just silly. We lived In the same neighborhood and we grew up around the same folks it's just some of those change but we didnt so that's why we still cool..we been knowing each other for about Wooo!! For a minute..lol..but yea that's my broham I got his back and he got mines enough said.

So yea this is the circle..that I can call on,count on to be there. Just a little description on how i met those guys. I'm cool with alot of people and I dont want people to think just cause your name wasn't up here that we not cool..it's just these people been there for me enough said. As always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love.

Friends

What do you think of when you hear the word friend??? (think about it)...well me when I hear it I simply think and this might be funny And you might say I'm silly for this one but I think of the whoodini song friends..it's a perfect example..but now a days friends come and go..like its nothing..I'm talking about somebody you have known for a minute..can UP and betray you In some dumb incident..and the most common break up of " friends" i think are between two girls,two boys,girl and a boy are ended or messed up because either a girl talked to her boyfriend friend or the other way around..dumb Incidents right?? But it happens..it's life..yea it's messed up..but in the end you find out how those people are that you call your so call friend. Me personally if Im your friend Ive known you for a little minute..and I got your back,I'm there for you through good times and bad times,if I got it you got it (except for my girl lol)I'm honest,real,trustworthy,you can count on me.but always be careful who you call your friends..who you meet..cause people fake it til they make it..so as i always say, always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love.

Introduction to a new me

Whats up my peoples, it's been along long long time since I blogged..lol sorry..but alot has been going on in my life..if not my life other people I care alot for life, and if you know me I try and help my peoples out with what I can,but like i always say,things happen In life for a reason..all you have to do is think about what's going on and not let it control you..you might think you doing good cause you helping people out and ect..but that's not the case always,as with me in my case. I thought everything was going somewhat good when it wasnt..so when things start to happen it was happening back to back..and it got overwhelming for me to the point I broke down and cried...yes I'm not afraid to say I cried..everybody cry sometimes it's life..the toughest person cry..so anyway I cried and I was asking myself why is things happening to me of all people..I mean I never wish nothing bad on nobody but come on MEEE!!!! I guess no one is excluded...Humm..so I thought and started to evaluate everything that was going on..and came up with I was helping everybody, making sure everybody was straight except me. Not saying I'm going to stop trying to help people but from now on it start with me then my peoples I can't help someone else if I'm
Not cool myself. But this blog entry is just my introduction to a better,smarter,wiser,stronger,respectful,faithful,honest,true human being ME. So as i always say, always stay true to yourself and others around you peace n love. 

random thoughts..

See girls don't see what guy they have in front of them until they goo and get hurt, done wrong or knocked up and left to do everything for they self..by they self..don't get me wrong things happen for a reason BUT it was choices you could have made better at that point..good guy with job,car,goals,ect. Or guy with the same thing but after one thing..and when he got that one thing he dipped(dead beat)..all I can say to my lady's is that are in this category is to stay strong, learn from the mistake you made..and move on and do better and be the best parent ever..just sayin just a random thought..1love from the one and only you know.